Oh, someone please explain, why is she so angry?

This I Promise You

Only desiccant tears, I cry for you
Dessicant tears…I cry for you

You deserve every polluted word
ever thrown at you
Every remark of antagonism you’ve
slapped me with,
I will heave back at you; one day, you will pay
I will reduce your life to the deteriorated
shreds of what it should be
This I promise you

I see you now, you sibilate in circles around me
I hate this world you’ve created for me
I survive by living in these gray hallucinations
I am magenta and all I see is the buried and bleak dejection
of my youth, she’s hiding, don’t you see?
Every glimmer of colour that may have existed…

You have stolen, there is no sky
(you have stolen from me, there is no sky)

Not in my world

You wound every bit
of dignity I have managed to scrape up
These lesions you have left me with
will never mend
Each day they open more and more
as you are spitting on them

There is sand in my eyes, you’ve thrown it at me
And yet you yell, why can I not see?
I always thought I had dug myself
into a hole of melancholy and this I had done alone
But you were deceiving me just as you deceive this world with
your exultant smiles
You bought me the shovel with that sparkle in your eye
You impelled every action subconsciously

I will fight you til’ the day I die