I am so sick of being sick and tired.

Not being able to breathe or sleep or stay awake.
Tired of taking medications for medications.
Easing the pain but throwing up.
Brittle bones make clicking noises.
It’s quiet.
I can’t feel my hands. I’m tired of these little pills and doctors that talk down to me.
I just want to sleep, sleep endlessly.

i shouldn’t be with anyone
i shouldn’t talk to anyone
i should
not.