could it be
that i am so cold i am with fever?
if only i could find a name for this disease
but there are no finding symptoms
i check myself in
could this be an emergency?

nurses in sponge divert their eyes
begin with the h (speak not such a word)
the bottom of the rolling bed
placebo filled iv
injecting
paranoia
into my veins
the floors are
far too clean.
(they speak of death. foreign bankruptcy of the immune
sort. they whisper of tragedy.
have we danced upon them yet?
perhaps.)

these sheets, do we cower under them?
marked: get out
provide for more useful

end
bringing home boxes of apple juice
empty
a cast for my
heart

i am far too comfortable
in hospitals